A.D.D., A.D.H.D, attention deficit disorder, disabilities, Life!, mental health, Teaching

Blonde Moments

I am a special education teacher who truly loves what I do. Each and everyday I walk into my classroom and I look past all of my students’ imperfections. I do not look at the kid who the other teachers fear that they will get on their roster come the beginning of September, but I look at that kid as a challenge. One of my more challenging kids, who is judged and labeled as being “crazy” and “bad” is personally one of my favorite kids.

He does what other people do not have the balls to do. He does not follow rules and defies authority. He speaks what is on his mind–to the point where it actually gets him into trouble. I have been cursed of by this student, and most teachers ask why I have not given up on him. They question, why do I even try or care? They say that I will never be able to reach him. I say I know I can. And I have.

Well, the other day, he said something that really made me laugh. He raised his hand and our conversation went sorta something like this: (obviously I am using pseudonyms to avoid criticism and getting in trouble!):

Greg: ::raises hand::

Mrs. Teacher: Yes, Greg?

Greg:Uhmmmmm… Mrs. Teacher,I just wanted to let you know …Uhmmm… that…

Mrs. Teacher: That… what is it Greg?

Greg: That you are really smart. You have your days when you are teaching and I think to myself, wow, Mrs. Teacher sure is one smart lady. But then …… I … uhmmm…..

Mrs. Teacher: You…. what Greg?

Greg: Well, don’t take this the wrong way, Mrs. Teacher, but you have your blonde moments.

Mrs. Teacher: Blonde moments? What do you mean blonde moments?

Greg: Well, you know….blonde moments. I know you are a brunette and everything, but I sometimes wonder if you are a true blonde because you have these “duh” moments.

Mrs. Teacher: ::laughs::

Just thought this was funny!!! Had to share!

Friends, Life!, Teaching

Do what you love….

One of my fellow coworkers just recently quit her job teaching because she wants to do what she loves,to be a mom. We were all betting money that she would not come back since she took a year off. Then the news spread like wild-fire that she was no longer going to continue being an English teacher at our school. I kind of new that from the get-go. It is really not such a difficult choice.

On the outside, she seemed to be VERY happy teaching at our school.She was so happy that it made you wonder what you were doing incorrectly, and made you question whether or not teaching was the right career choice for you. She kind of made you feel unhuman or crazy because you actually showed that you were unhappy about a student telling you off, or ticked off at your supervisor and overwhelmed at times. However, looks can be deceiving.

Yes, on the outside, she seemed to be perfect, but a little too perfect. I knew that no one could be that perfect, and that behind that fake facade was really someone who hated her job. I knew it was just a matter of time. After she quit, I found out more about who she truly is as a person by reading her blog. It is strange how you can work with someone for years and know nothing about them, until you read their blog. Turns out that she DREADED teaching and started having anxiety about returning in September. It kind of gave me a piece of mind. I thought to myself…ok I am not crazy after all. It is the ones who act normal that are truly crazy!! SUCCESS!

She inspired me to pursue doing the things that I love. Since teaching is such a demanding and time consuming job, you have to dedicate A LOT of your time and you have the tendency to forget what is truly important in life.–Taking care of yourself and enjoying time with your family and friends, and most importantly.–doing the things that you love. My coworker now blogs daily, does photography, jogs, cuts hair, travels and hangs with her friends. Many of the things that I wish I could do too. Let me not forget…She even posted a picture of herself having drinks with her friends on Facebook! A major no-no for teachers. Heck, I have not been able to do that since college!

But to get to my point, I could never think about quitting my teaching job. I actually look forward to going in everyday and am very excited about teaching my “kids.”Yes, I consider them to be my children.

Although I love my teaching job, and cannot picture myself doing anything else, I have those days when I feel unappreciated and feel mentally abused so-to-speak. However, the good days, teachable moments and the reminders from students that you are a great teacher are what make my job worthwhile. Despite the fact that I cannot picture myself doing anything else, I have been feeling inspired to do what I love. I have a very creative mind and love, love, love to create things. I just wonder what would I be able to actually accomplish if I had the time to invest in creating more….becoming an entrepreneur.

I create bottle cap jewelry, knit, and do photography. I truly LOVE doing these things and, I wish that I could start my own business somehow…someway…someday. It truly is an investment of time ,and I am not sure if I am ready just yet to actually do what I love when I am still in love with my current position. I guess I will have to wait until I completely fall out of love with being a teacher to pursue my other love, but who knows how long that will be…. and who knows if that will ever really happen…. I guess we will have to wait and see….